Again...

Hello:) Today is the last day of my work break... I wish I had a couple more days' left, lol. Dave went back today so I am spending time updating my blog, tidying the house and just hanging around. Oh yes, I've started a dieting blog too so check it out:)

It's been a hard weekend again. I know none of you actually know the ins and outs of my life and I'm sorry about that I'm just not ready to talk about things. The reason I like having this blog though is so that I can talk about things but not to anyone in particular, face to face. Things are happening within my family that I'm finding very hard to deal with. I can feel myself changing as a person... I'm no fun anymore. I don't want to talk to anyone. I like being on my own with my phone switched to silent. It gives me time to think and to put my mind and body at rest. I'm not saying all of this to make any excuses for myself, I try to go about life the way I used to. I may, however, need people to try to make certain allowances for me from time to time. If I don't answer my phone, please don't call me back 1,000 times and only give up because you're sick of hearing Mrs T-mobile pass you onto the voicemail. I promise I will get back to you, as soon as I feel ready to.

I also want to say sorry to any of you that think that I am a horrible friend as I don't talk anymore. I'm so sorry as I didn't want this to happen to us. I am a terrible friend but as you are my friend you will already know that I am a very guarded/private person and that I find it extremely hard to talk about myself and the feelings that I have. But please accept my apology... I love you all dearly:)

Anyway, now that I have that off my chest... Dave and I went to see Leanne, John, Jack and Baby Emma last night. Emma is sooooooooo cute! She just got out of hospital yesterday morning after having to go under the lights to treat her jaundice. Leanne's stories of childbirth are all the contraception I need!!!!! It sounded horrific! When I next feel the urge to contribute to the world population I think I'll just send off for some adoption papers, cut out all of the pain! lol:)

Well, it's back to good ol' Tesco for me tomorrow:( I hate it there but I hear through the grapevine that the vacancy in my department that has been vacant for 5months and 2weeks exactly, has finally been posted so hopefully I'll have a workmate to bond with soon. I hope they are a nice person, whoever I get!

Anyway, I'm outta here! Take care, K xoxoxo